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lyrics

For me the worst part about being apathetic
is my fastidiously keen awareness of it
because it's not that I can't hear the songs of the birds
or see the fancy cloud formations found upwards
but that all of that is in a format
that's too far from me
to be able to feel.

Coffee awaits me downstairs
coffee coffee fill me with glee and caffeine
And the day outside is cold and crisp and sunny
Crisp winter air
shake me and make me care
And the birds happily and hungrily eat their suet
And I watch from a window keenly aware I'm looking through it
And the wind shakes the pine branches outside
Trees, trees, I can feel that you're judging me

Apathetic is broken down into a and pathetic
followed swiftly by human
or at least that's how I feel it
which is mean of inner me
as if I didn't feel bad enough already
and as if I would not switch it off if I could
and as if inner me weren't the one that could set me free
cos she makes it far worse, oh I curse her, I curse
oh, for crying out loud, is there not something around, hideous inner me,
that could stop your incessant glaring at me

Today I won't go running, as I ran yesterday
and the day before,
which is a shame as I would so adore
to feel completely worn out and switched off
and too tired to feel what a waste and a disgrace of a person I am today,
and I would run run run run run, run run run run run, run run run run
away from such a pathetic human

And the nicest cardinal you ever did see
hopped and flew past, yes right past me,
trying his best and utmost to make me feel
his truth which is that life is good and sweet
but he's in one place and I'm in another
and I tell him he must stop,
that with this girl his beauty just hurts her
and to the dove, and the cardinal, and the little chickadee,
I say,
"thanks but don't waste your time
on someone like me".

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from How to Care for an African Violet, released June 11, 2014

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Ciara Carruthers Portland, Oregon

Ukulele playing, singer-songwriter from Ireland.

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